## 15.5.09

### Worth=(Happiness-Effort)/time

i have come up with a formula to determine if it is worth doing anything.
=Happiness-Effort
time
so complete happiness is 1.0 and the opposite is 0.0, while complete ease is 0.0 for effort, with complete effort coming to 1.0, and the time is actually apart of the rating system allowing you to rationalize your results, so that you can weight it up against instant gratification and long term and delayed gratification.
so if you go to the gym, and you have a good session for 1 hour, you get H=1.0 and E=1.0 (H=1.0 due to the endorphin hit that comes with a a good session. and so at the end of the session it is at that point a zero sum equation, but the good session leads to a high for the rest of the day, without any effort, so H=.8 for 5 hours, + a good nights sleep. the next day your a little sore, but still feeling good from the day before
> H=.8 (endorphin high)-.2 (for sore muscles) for 1 day baseline... leads to a day with a .6 baseline with 0 effort which is overall happiness. plus numerous 10 second 1.0 where people say you look well and BAM, hitting the gym is a positive outcome from a seemingly 0 sum equation. (plus other good <0.5>
the thing that seems like it would be a perfect option is however a 1 night stand, happiness is 1.0 (from the hunt and the kill and the eating of the cake) effort is about .14 (possible drinks bought, having to talk to the person, and taxi fares maybe why not). but it falls down on the time scale. so 30 minute hunt, and 5 hours for pre and post. so Worth Rating of 0.86 over 5.5 hours, but this means that you are single. so over 6 months so with say 24 1 night stands at .86/120 hours in 6 months, leaves out that gap bits, and so the gap bits amount up-to something into negatives of time spent alone, and cold bed, and not having dinner cooked for you. and so a swingers lifestyle can lead to an overall happiness scale of around .5 a break even point, slightly higher if you enjoy single life, or lower if you don't have the fall back friends, or intermittent dating.
so all in all, hit the gym, have fun if your single, but a relationship like the gym with about .5 effort and .8 happiness, over its longevity=.3 baseline, +5.5 hours *1.0-0.0 effort, and the spikes where all is well.
now all i need to do is figure out exactly what i want, so ill go to the gym for a baseline. :)

## 4.5.09

### Are We Dancer??

I have recently been going through a break and one of my mates said that I'm only allowed to listen to happy music. This started em thinking about how music can alter the Human Experience.
With the Left side of the brain being the literal thinking side, and the right side of the brain being rhetoric, (or vice versa, now i doubt myself) which side is the music resonating with. at first i thought, i cant listen to sad music, so i was sure not put on Conner O'berst's last album, because that is never a good idea, so i went with Yael Naim's Paris. as its not in english, so i thought, "don't know the lyrics", which had more of an effect than the English speaking music preceding it.
Then 2 days later at 4.30am when dancing at a club Pinks, "So What?!" started, and was taken over by rage, not the rabies modified virus that wipes out Britain twice if you have seen 28 days/weeks(/Will there ever be months(?). So where does this over emotion-ness of music come from that exaggerates our experiences...
One of the last things that i learnt in neuroscience, was that the brain takes in stimulus from the outside world in the frontal cortex, and asks the internal environment, and asks what the gradient should it be at. Thats why when your at a theme park, when you go on a roller-coaster, while your on there you feel scared, and if your scared of hight, really scared, and the degree of scared-ness you had when you got off the ride, is your degree of "Uber-Happpy" in the after math. and the next day, you have a terrible come down from this, because you have had allot of happy stimulation.
So with music being the a great mood alternator, and mood being controlled in the frontal cortex, after taking in information about how it should be feeling from the eyes and ears, and the reassessment of that information in the context of the day, and stress the level of stress the body is going through (increased insulin, Blood pressure), can you get over something faster if you induce a series of mediocre days?
Each time you focus on a memory, it is taken in, and recreated, and it has been proven that by using drugs that erase memory formation, if they are then taken remembering of something, the memory is dampened, and so a memory that is never remembered is truest to itself. And we remember due to a series of sticky notes being placed at moments in the day that are different, and the body is stressed.
This brings me to think is it better to Drain it, strain it, and percolate something bad until it looses all of its momentum and turns itself into a Grims tale, repress it, or refocus it into something more productive? Or more simply: are we Dancer?
-Kane